Missing TSCF

I'm so special, I'm amazing
follow my every call
I will make a pretty big statue
golden and fairly tall
cue the music, bow down to me
or else I'll burn...you all

sing it to the tune "I am sixteen, going on seventeen"

Nick-da-nezz, Nick-da-nezz
fire does not scare us
Hot and white, blazing bright
God is able to save us

and If he doesn't your still real dumb
real dumb and angry
nick-da-nezz, nick-da-nezz
Idols don't take our fancy

sing it to the tune "Edelweiss"

Songs sang at Brotaki's got talent Mid yr TSCF conference "Living the dream" from the book of Daniel. You got talent, people!

Amy Carmichael's faith

"It is not difficult to see how this is for the best; it is impossible. But we are asked to walk not by sight but by faith, and only faith can allow us to let Iyer Walker go without bitterness."

wow. Iyer Walker is like a big brother to Amy. He taught Amy to speak Tamil and helped Amy in many ways to be a mother of one hundred Indian girls. His passing was a real shock because Amy will be left alone in the ministry...her other friend also passed away in the same week. Her girls tried to comfort her...yet they acknowledged that it was difficult to see all these are working for her best. The first line of this post was her answer.


One is to be pitied, if not stirred by such answer--

xxx

Too much

I did something that I regretted.

Ugh.

yesterday...

I was so overwhelmed with work...

it seems mountainous

then...

I remember my boss once told me

If I ever feel I have too much...just don't be shy to say it

Yeah...

I told my manager...

through e-mail...

cos he keeps e-mailing me with stuff to do...

while he is out in a conference

there was one thing I felt ridiculous...

one e-mail was asking the address of our company...

I didn't know what was that about...so I e-mailed back saying sorry I wasn't sure where is it to go

He replied me to read the message carefully... I mean He replied that guy that I will tell him the address. I mean...He worked here longer than me at least he must have our address somewhere...and he rather wrote the e-mail to that guy that I will reply him rather than he quickly tell him where our address is.

Sigh

With that same e-mail, I told him I have a lot on my plate to be done until this week ends. just to let him know...I was feeling overwhelmed. He replied to me saying that He can not give work on my convenience...or my free time. I wasn't even asking that. So...I feel kinda stink.

I keep telling myself that it is gonna be alright...but I don't seem to be able to relax.

:(

Fear God and Fear Nothing Else

The world is shaking with fear. "What will become of us? Where will it all end? What if Russia...? What if cancer...? What if expression...?" The love of God has wrapped us round from before the foundations of the world. If we fear Him--that is, if we are brought to our knees before Him, reverence and worship Him in absolute assurance of his sovereignty, we cannot possibly be afraid of anything else. To love God is to destroy all other fear. To love the world is to be afraid of everything--what it may think of me, what it may do to me, what may happen today or tomorrow for which I am not prepared.

"The Lord is the stronghold of my life--of whom shall I be afraid?" (Ps 27:1 RSV).

And yet, Lord, the truth is that I am often afraid. I confess it. All the weight of your promises seems sometimes to be only a feather, and the weight of my fears is lead. Reverse that, Lord, I pray. Give me the healthy fear that will make light of all the others--"The fear of the Lord is life; he who is full of it will rest untouched by evil" (Prv 19:23 NEB).

by EE

Lord...hear my prayer...

Boys over flowers Music & Photos

Goo Jun Pyo (aka Lee Min Ho)

Korean Epu Four

True Love and Friendship.
Sacrifice.
Trust.
Forgiveness.

as opposed to

immense wealth
outward beauty
Envy
Selfishness


Love is so refreshing! Sacrifice is so refreshing! Trust is so refreshing! oh I am glad to be able to breathe a bit. The world is too stuffy, too boring, too predictable, too weak, too childish. Stuffy with superficial things, stuffy with people who only care about themselves. We are hurted and hurt each other. What good is it?

Don't worry I include myself in. I hope with my little life I am not becoming more and more pathetic. But be that channel of love that refreshes... Jesus my only hope.

Man will not be able to live without love. True love belongs only to the mature...those who are ready to be tested by it.

Thanks to onerishe...whoever you are...for posting boys over flowers in youtube. I owe it to you these interesting and relaxing days. Sorry for infringing copyright. If I get my hands to the DVD, will definitely get it. And obviously to the director and the beloved young handsome, pretty actor and actresses...you all did so well. Kamsahamidaaa!

Thanks Anne! :)) If you didn't say anything, I wouldn't have known.

Comment for all the actors (spoiler alert):

GJP: you stupid, idiotic, stubborn, hot-tempered, guy! haiyah...lucky you have a charming smile I tell you! I admire your persistence.

Ji Hoo: you are indeed kind hearted. I wish you well, altho this is just a movie, I hope you live the Ji Hoo out of you... glad to see that you bounced from depression...thanks to jandi ah?

YI Jeung: You stupid thing! I know you have a hard life, you didn't mean to be a womanizer but next time I'd like to see you initiate...believe in happy endings...and smile...too many women have fallen for it.

Woo Bin: You are always there for your friend! was surprised when you said sometimes you are embarassed being with F4...why? you don't have anyone? you are a good man...you will survive. Only cut down clubbing!

Dear F4,

good guys I must say. pretty rare to find these days. Keep it yow!

Dear Jandi,

WAW! I admire your courage, justice, love, passion in everything you do, joy, sweet friendship and your family. You all put to shame the wealthiest Shinhwa family.

Anyway...time to go to bed. Otherwise I won't be able to function well tomorrow.

A letter to God

I will start this post with a big big smile :)

Thank you for my job. When I achieved some things, it gives me real sense of delight and satisfaction.

Although God...

there are things that unsettles me:

especially when I see my friends suffering...and I am helpless...

especially when I read and see and meet people...whom selflessly joyfully sacrifice for you

Why I can not do that? why I feel powerless and defeated?

especially when I learnt about the Almighty God, how loving and gracious He is...and yet...in my life...it doesn't really show that my God is a loving and caring Father?

why I am stunt when people ask me about you?? why can't I witness and say yes...this is the God that I experience? why it seems that my witness is not very convincing? why I see other Christians can seem to relate to you so closely... and absolutely trust you? yet I feel so skeptical?
I know it does not start with feelings...it starts with believing, willing then obeying...but sometimes even my faith in you is weak. I want to reach out to you but I have no power...I want to obey but it seems so difficult...

I think you appreciate honesty...here I am, I come with no pretension.

Empower me. Please...

Human can show their love to another by doing sacrificial things...If I love you, I must follow you. No matter how expensive the cost. But, I cudn't pay the price. God of love...will you fill this empty heart with your love...that I may be able to love you worthily...in return...

yours alone xxx