Dialogue with self

Lilis...calm down. I think you are just tired. Cheer up, girl! Whatever m can say...whatever K...whatever Y...whatever N whatever R...whatever M...whatever...oh whatever...

Your confidence comes from the Lord. And remember...He is always sovereign...He is always in control...there are always good reasons for Him to allow some pain on your way...most probably to mature your characters. Accept with both hands the situation. Welcome the hardship with joy...count it all as a fellowship of His suffering. Your boss enjoys putting people down...especially when he needs to get his point across and win the verbal battle. Let him say whatever he wants, but don't take it personally. Otherwise it is going to be difficult working with him. At the moment, yes, you are not skillful yet in shutting off your ears to those hurtful words. But, hard work normally pays off. Be patient in affliction...endure the light momentary troubles...by the grace that God provided.

He never allows hardship to come to our way without enabling us or leaving us alone without any provision.

• Never...never allow them to change your life principles, never compromise godly values. It is worth the fight.
  
• Never...never be afraid of making mistakes, life is full of them, they are inevitable. Don't be discouraged!
• Quit trying to please everyone. Learn to do so. No matter how hard. People are so fickle, a chasing after the wind.
• When you need to delegate, take a deep breath, smile, make eye contacts and just do it!
• Debt chaser, what a horrible job! but see it this way...you will then have the courage..years after you will think this is such a valuable experience. Imagine, if the money is your money, what would you do? what would you say? usually it is common sense.
  
• Be confident! not because you have all the skills and you are experienced. But, it is because God wants you to be where you are, at present. You can be sure He is there also. So...be confident!
• When you are tempted to complain, this is not easy especially you live in a country where people think they have not lived if they do not complain. Complaining means you are lacking in something and it could possibly be only a small thing. But, it sure makes it difficult to enjoy something bigger. Your life.
• The boss can say whatever they want, it is because they are the boss. You will get your right when you are in their position. But, they are human like us, things do not always follow their way of thinking, their opinions are not always right. Let them be...if they are angry and miserable...it is their own problem. If they are bitter and nasty, they have a problem...should be pitied. Of course, you are not a saint. No one is. If you found that you are extremely annoyed with them, it is perfectly normal. Just... who enjoys to be scolded?

Survival steps:

• pray to God, it brings you to the source of hope and help (yes, you need help!)
• channel out stress and anger through doing whatever relaxes you, have some fun
• do escape from the noise and the crowd because it helps to calm down and clear your mind
• Yeah...try not to make any decision when you are still hot-headed. Most of the time it leads to regrets

Not easy to do. But, gotta have to. God will give grace. Use them.

You are not alone in this!