10 October 2009
My desire
I just long for quietness. Solitude. Peace. Slow pace of life. Singapore is too hectic, too fast, too ambitious, too eager...if you are ready for it, you will be ok, you will be improved for the better. Yesterday was talking to Hilda and what a well of wisdom she is. I want to have that kind of peace, serenity and graciousness. These qualities made her beautiful. These are the jewels women should wear, the popular branded bags and fashion that's 'in'. Not cheap stuff.
I groan for my own weaknesses.
I hate my sensitivity to words
I hate my tendency to follow what others think
I hate my indecisiveness
I hate my timidity
I hate my lack of confidence
I want to break free.
I want to be able to refuse graciously
I want to know the Lord's will for my life and stick to it no matter what!!
I want to walk slowly despite my hurry surroundings
I want conviction
I want to live victoriously with Him
I want to be fearless
I want to make decisions and not being fickle
I know what I need to do and I just want to do what I am supposed to do.
I do not want to be afraid of making mistakes regardless of what people say
I don't want to care too much of what people say
I want to have the freedom to do what God puts in my heart regardless of what parents will say or others will say...why should I be afraid? or embarassed? my God is the Lord of the Universe.
I want to know how to deal or communicate with my parents, family
I want happiness and joy and I know very well I can only obtain these in God. I am absolutely convinced that no where else is found true everlasting source of happiness
I want to be a christian hedonist! (John Piper haha)
and I know I will slowly get to this place because I am already free. I know what I need to do but often I have no courage nor faith. Lord, give me what is due to me now, what is my lot at present and if I ask for something that belongs to the future, give me patience to wait and willingness to yield to your will.
God, we only need you. Our deepest longings can only be fully satisfied by you...because you are perfect. Nothing else can. If our heart should desire for something cheap, please graciously show Yourself to us, that we may learn to desire what is good, what is perfect and what is right.
We will be truly ourselves when we are in Him.
I groan for my own weaknesses.
I hate my sensitivity to words
I hate my tendency to follow what others think
I hate my indecisiveness
I hate my timidity
I hate my lack of confidence
I want to break free.
I want to be able to refuse graciously
I want to know the Lord's will for my life and stick to it no matter what!!
I want to walk slowly despite my hurry surroundings
I want conviction
I want to live victoriously with Him
I want to be fearless
I want to make decisions and not being fickle
I know what I need to do and I just want to do what I am supposed to do.
I do not want to be afraid of making mistakes regardless of what people say
I don't want to care too much of what people say
I want to have the freedom to do what God puts in my heart regardless of what parents will say or others will say...why should I be afraid? or embarassed? my God is the Lord of the Universe.
I want to know how to deal or communicate with my parents, family
I want happiness and joy and I know very well I can only obtain these in God. I am absolutely convinced that no where else is found true everlasting source of happiness
I want to be a christian hedonist! (John Piper haha)
and I know I will slowly get to this place because I am already free. I know what I need to do but often I have no courage nor faith. Lord, give me what is due to me now, what is my lot at present and if I ask for something that belongs to the future, give me patience to wait and willingness to yield to your will.
God, we only need you. Our deepest longings can only be fully satisfied by you...because you are perfect. Nothing else can. If our heart should desire for something cheap, please graciously show Yourself to us, that we may learn to desire what is good, what is perfect and what is right.
We will be truly ourselves when we are in Him.
God & Man
1 O LORD, our Lord,
how majestic is your name in all the earth!
You have set your glory
above the heavens.
how majestic is your name in all the earth!
You have set your glory
above the heavens.
2 From the lips of children and infants
you have ordained praise
because of your enemies,
to silence the foe and the avenger.
Wow, the lips of children & infants, The lord has ordained praise. He had ordained praise... mustn't we do what we supposed to do? Praising the Lord Almighty?
3 When I consider your heavens,
the work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
which you have set in place,
This reminds me of the Seminar. He had set them all in place. He is the creator of the universe. The massive size of the universe, He can contain...who is He? what is He? We humbly submit our limited knowledge and present ourselves before Thee.
4 what is man that you are mindful of him,
the son of man that you care for him?
Compare to the universe, we are so insignificant, nothing...why He loves me so?
5 You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings
and crowned him with glory and honor.
Man...is crowned with glory and honor. We are dignified creatures. Our worth depends on the creator and the creator is pleased with us. He bestows glory and honor to us. Why are we down and rejected? see our creator treasures us. Words from fellow creatures means nothing, we are His.
6 You made him ruler over the works of your hands;
you put everything under his feet:
He graciously gives us authority over his other creations. He treats us special and that is because of trust and love for us.
7 all flocks and herds,
and the beasts of the field,
8 the birds of the air,
and the fish of the sea,
all that swim the paths of the seas.
9 O LORD, our Lord,
how majestic is your name in all the earth!
Psalm 8
07 October 2009
The cure for the melancholic
- You must be a little bit cruel
- When your friend are talking, don't make eye contacts, multitasks...
- You should avoid philosophical discussion, deep thinking should not be encouraged
- Don't stare too long when you think something is beautiful, take a deep breath, and walk away
- Your friends are often intelligent problem solver, don't underestimate their survival instinct.
- Should remember that some of those poor people are just lazy.
- Never forget that Boss is only human, 26 chromosomes, not dragon or some sort.
- Learn to make mistakes
- Be a fool
Telegram
Stress.
Pressure.
Hatred.
Anger.
Helplessness.
Timid.
Overloaded.
Isolation.
Quiet.
Peace.
Joy.
Contentment.
God.
Tired.
Everyone.
FEAR.
FEAR.
FEAR.
GOD.
Pressure.
Hatred.
Anger.
Helplessness.
Timid.
Overloaded.
Isolation.
Quiet.
Peace.
Joy.
Contentment.
God.
Tired.
Everyone.
FEAR.
FEAR.
FEAR.
GOD.
04 October 2009
No Fear
Do not look forward to the changes and chances of this life in fear; rather look to them with full hope that, as they arise, God, whose you are, will deliver you out of them. He has kept you hitherto, --do you but hold fast to His dear hand, and He will lead you safely through all things; and, when you can not stand, He will bear you in His arms.
...The same everlasting Father who cares for you today, will take care of you tomorrow, and every day. Either He will shield you from suffering, or He will give you unfailing strength to bear it. Be at peace then, and put aside all anxious thoughts and imaginations.
Francis de Sales (1567-1622)
...The same everlasting Father who cares for you today, will take care of you tomorrow, and every day. Either He will shield you from suffering, or He will give you unfailing strength to bear it. Be at peace then, and put aside all anxious thoughts and imaginations.
Francis de Sales (1567-1622)
My Feelings are not reliable
"We must choose, without any regard to the state of our emotions, what attitude our will will take toward God. We must recognize that our emotions are only the servants of our will...
Our will can control our feelings if only we are steadfastly minded to do so. Many times when my feelings have declared contrary to the facts, I have changed those feelings entirely by a steadfast assertion of their opposite...
Surging emotions - like a tossing vessel, which by degrees yields to the steady pull of the anchor - finding themselves attached to the mighty power of God by the choice of your will, must sooner or later give allegiance to Him..." Hannah Whittall Smith
Have I lived a victorious life? "Living Victoriously" was the theme of our KKR service these few days. I have received the invitation, the opportunity to serve as counsellor and choir. I had chosen the choir because I don't think in my state I can be a counsellor at all, I don't think I have lived victoriously, I think I am somewhat in an emotional prison that hold me in bondage.
I feel fear
I feel rejected
I feel uncertainties against my future
I feel lonely
I feel hopeless
but that are only my feelings...and my feelings sure have driven me nuts!!!
God loves me, regardless I feel loved or not
God is with me, regardless I feel lonely or not
God accepts me, regardless me feeling much rejection from man
God loves me enough to limit Satan power in trying His saints, regardless I feel secure or not
God is sovereign and in control, and again... He loves me enough to give me future and hope in eternity, regardless my feeling of hopelessness and despair.
These are the truth!!! God remains faithful forever and ever. He is not like fickle minded man, He is totally unchangeable! That's why if we have Him as our foundation, We will SURELY NEVER BE SHAKEN!
We take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ -- 2Cor 10:5b
Oh Father, it is not always easy
Please...h e l p m e...
Our will can control our feelings if only we are steadfastly minded to do so. Many times when my feelings have declared contrary to the facts, I have changed those feelings entirely by a steadfast assertion of their opposite...
Surging emotions - like a tossing vessel, which by degrees yields to the steady pull of the anchor - finding themselves attached to the mighty power of God by the choice of your will, must sooner or later give allegiance to Him..." Hannah Whittall Smith
Have I lived a victorious life? "Living Victoriously" was the theme of our KKR service these few days. I have received the invitation, the opportunity to serve as counsellor and choir. I had chosen the choir because I don't think in my state I can be a counsellor at all, I don't think I have lived victoriously, I think I am somewhat in an emotional prison that hold me in bondage.
I feel fear
I feel rejected
I feel uncertainties against my future
I feel lonely
I feel hopeless
but that are only my feelings...and my feelings sure have driven me nuts!!!
God loves me, regardless I feel loved or not
God is with me, regardless I feel lonely or not
God accepts me, regardless me feeling much rejection from man
God loves me enough to limit Satan power in trying His saints, regardless I feel secure or not
God is sovereign and in control, and again... He loves me enough to give me future and hope in eternity, regardless my feeling of hopelessness and despair.
These are the truth!!! God remains faithful forever and ever. He is not like fickle minded man, He is totally unchangeable! That's why if we have Him as our foundation, We will SURELY NEVER BE SHAKEN!
We take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ -- 2Cor 10:5b
Oh Father, it is not always easy
Please...h e l p m e...