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Goo Jun Pyo (aka Lee Min Ho)

Korean Epu Four

True Love and Friendship.
Sacrifice.
Trust.
Forgiveness.

as opposed to

immense wealth
outward beauty
Envy
Selfishness


Love is so refreshing! Sacrifice is so refreshing! Trust is so refreshing! oh I am glad to be able to breathe a bit. The world is too stuffy, too boring, too predictable, too weak, too childish. Stuffy with superficial things, stuffy with people who only care about themselves. We are hurted and hurt each other. What good is it?

Don't worry I include myself in. I hope with my little life I am not becoming more and more pathetic. But be that channel of love that refreshes... Jesus my only hope.

Man will not be able to live without love. True love belongs only to the mature...those who are ready to be tested by it.

Thanks to onerishe...whoever you are...for posting boys over flowers in youtube. I owe it to you these interesting and relaxing days. Sorry for infringing copyright. If I get my hands to the DVD, will definitely get it. And obviously to the director and the beloved young handsome, pretty actor and actresses...you all did so well. Kamsahamidaaa!

Thanks Anne! :)) If you didn't say anything, I wouldn't have known.

Comment for all the actors (spoiler alert):

GJP: you stupid, idiotic, stubborn, hot-tempered, guy! haiyah...lucky you have a charming smile I tell you! I admire your persistence.

Ji Hoo: you are indeed kind hearted. I wish you well, altho this is just a movie, I hope you live the Ji Hoo out of you... glad to see that you bounced from depression...thanks to jandi ah?

YI Jeung: You stupid thing! I know you have a hard life, you didn't mean to be a womanizer but next time I'd like to see you initiate...believe in happy endings...and smile...too many women have fallen for it.

Woo Bin: You are always there for your friend! was surprised when you said sometimes you are embarassed being with F4...why? you don't have anyone? you are a good man...you will survive. Only cut down clubbing!

Dear F4,

good guys I must say. pretty rare to find these days. Keep it yow!

Dear Jandi,

WAW! I admire your courage, justice, love, passion in everything you do, joy, sweet friendship and your family. You all put to shame the wealthiest Shinhwa family.

Anyway...time to go to bed. Otherwise I won't be able to function well tomorrow.

A letter to God

I will start this post with a big big smile :)

Thank you for my job. When I achieved some things, it gives me real sense of delight and satisfaction.

Although God...

there are things that unsettles me:

especially when I see my friends suffering...and I am helpless...

especially when I read and see and meet people...whom selflessly joyfully sacrifice for you

Why I can not do that? why I feel powerless and defeated?

especially when I learnt about the Almighty God, how loving and gracious He is...and yet...in my life...it doesn't really show that my God is a loving and caring Father?

why I am stunt when people ask me about you?? why can't I witness and say yes...this is the God that I experience? why it seems that my witness is not very convincing? why I see other Christians can seem to relate to you so closely... and absolutely trust you? yet I feel so skeptical?
I know it does not start with feelings...it starts with believing, willing then obeying...but sometimes even my faith in you is weak. I want to reach out to you but I have no power...I want to obey but it seems so difficult...

I think you appreciate honesty...here I am, I come with no pretension.

Empower me. Please...

Human can show their love to another by doing sacrificial things...If I love you, I must follow you. No matter how expensive the cost. But, I cudn't pay the price. God of love...will you fill this empty heart with your love...that I may be able to love you worthily...in return...

yours alone xxx

Long Live Korean F4

Don't tell me the story! Ssssssshush! Shut UP! I am officially a Korean F4 victim! I mean FAN!

OHH MY GOSH!!! SO CUTEEEEEEE! (even cuter than Oh Brothers! guys...OOOOHHH myyyy)

Huhuhuhuh...GU JUN PYOO... when are you coming to Singapore, honey????

PS: Ji Hoo...I know you are nice...but you are too mellow, dear sweet...you and I will never be together (or we get too depressed). wakaka.

I have been watching until Ep 10 (warning: spoiler ALERT). and I like Jan Di mama, She rocks! Imagine the first lady of Shinhwa group went to their humble house, offering $$$ and she threw salt on her head and say "GEt out of HERE, right now!". Jan Di Omma....... I LOVE YOUU!! Click here to watch this part!

The following is the script:

Geum Kang San:
I've never been so proud of you, mom! Showing how pride is more important than money!

Jan DI Omma:

What is this kid on about?
How can pride is more important than money?
In a capitalist society, the first is money, the second is money, the third is money!! (big sweat!)
Pride? what pride?

Geum Kang San:
Then what was that about??

Jan Di Omma:
That stupid lady tell us to eat up three hundred million and buzz off (LOLLL!)
Huh! Is she teasing someone?
From Shinhwa group, anyone in Korea from three upwards knows... A mere three hundred million???????

Jan Di:
Then?

Jan Di Omma:
Later on, when you marry master Jun Pyo... And that woman...lives...
Is She going to live a thousand years? or ten thousand years?? (BWAHAHA)
Then, all the property of Shin Wha group will be inherited by her son and then that's all yours (pointed to Jan Di)
So HOW DARE SHE SAY THREE HUNDRED MILLION?

Jan Di:
OMMAAA!

Jan Di Omma:
What?
You be strong, ok?
So...our goal is...Shin Wha Logistics...Shin Wha Air...Shin Wha Electronics, Cement, Automobiles...
And...what is it before????

Kang San:
Lavindore!

Jan Di Omma:
That's it! That's it! yes, that hotel is yours!

Jan Di:
OMMAAA!

Jan Di Omma:
who knows, twenty years later you'll be in the news!

Jan Di Oppa:
Until we are the best we will never be satisfied (repeating the words of the first lady)

BIG LOLLL!

Ahhh Korean F4 such a sweet dream... so romantic... so up in the clouds... fairy tale like...so dreamy... can not 'tahan' lah...my heart...almost fainted...seeing those gorgeous smiles... I mean gorgeous guys... wahlau eh! Bwahahaha.

GOD, my shepherd!

God, my shepherd! I don't need a thing.
You have bedded me down in lush meadows,
you find me quiet pools to drink from.
True to your word,
you let me catch my breath
and send me in the right direction.

⁴ Even when the way goes through
Death Valley,
I'm not afraid
when you walk at my side.
Your trusty shepherd's crook
makes me feel secure.

⁵ You serve me a six-course dinner
right in front of my enemies.
You revive my drooping head;
my cup brims with blessing.

⁶ Your beauty and love chase after me
every day of my life.
I'm back home in the house of God
for the rest of my life.

Ps 23 by The Message

background: abis ngobrol ama ci siu sien. dia nyaranin baca Ps 23. bener juga membawa kelegaan. Thanks ci. I use a different version from I normally read, making this passage more "alive" cos this passage is so heavily quoted until it become a cliche.

Temperament Plus

I checked my temperament from the quiz that Ita gave me last night. According to the order of dominance, my temperament is the following:

1. Melancholic (Moses)
   
2. Sanguine (Peter)
   
3. Phlegmatic (Abraham)
4. Choleric (Paul)
   

I think this sounds much better and truer than my other previous tests I took.

My spiritual gifts check also as the following:

1. Knowledge
2. Teaching
3. Writing
4. Evangelism
5. Exhortation
6. Singing

which I think again truer of me compare to previous tests I did because I enjoy doing all of the above. hihihi. I have tried serving in different positions in the past, requiring many different gifts and have found to only enjoy all the above except probably teaching, cos in a small group situation I still don't like being at the centre of attention. Anyhow, I'd welcome your feedback.

PS to Ita: the book is SOOOOOOO HELPFUL! I wish at the very start, before I ever enter into "pelayanan" I had read this book and going to the seminar. I think it sets a correct foundation for serving at church.

Curahan Hati

I don't sleep very well these days. I feel tired. I feel things are just going out of control again and I feel no one understands.

Burden #1
Why? I am just getting better but why people does not seem want to see me happy and support me in this period of rest? may be they think I am ready, getting better. I am not talking about people at work but from the fellowship. Yeah, I guess they don't understand what I have gone through. Yet, I am tired of explaining my situation. I can't give what I don't have. Why I feel so haunted to serve? or even just to attend all the going on fellowship throughout the week? to be honest, it's starting to feel like a burden again, no joy...

Burden #2
My Boss. I feel like rubbish bin. People just chuck work at me. I don't mind the work but I can not stand the way He does things. He assumes that I know everything that He wants me to do, I have all the skills where I have none. When I muck up I got scolded. He is very quick to change into beast. No knowledge whatsoever and I was put in charge on that. Why I feel so burdened? because this meeting is my boss meeting with the big big boss meeting. I better not muck up on that. Pretty much this meeting is about the future of our branch in Spore. Not that we are going into bankruptcy but yeah to report and to propose new things. Why I can't relax huh?

Father, I have heavy burdens. PLEASE HELP!

Heck, it's mid-June 2009!

Don't you think it was just yesterday that we enter this year? time flies man... talking about that always reminded me to what my pastor used to say, that may be we are truly created for eternity where there is no time boundaries. Anyway, Waw...today I wish I was blogging in everywhere I went. But, anyhow that always happen to me.

East Coast Park
First thing first, my feet is sore. We walked and walked along the east coast, it was nice and relaxing but it was a little stressful as we know not the way to go. I how I figure out that memory is still good. Had a nice seafood dishes for tea (tea in kiwi means dinner, not an actual cup of tea). Black pepper crab, shellfish (we had two kinds which I am not too sure what is it in english). Poor mama. But she did enjoy the scenery. Oh btw, something really funny. I was happy walking and enjoying the beach until I step unto something...ewww it's dog poo... (nginjek tahi anjing - red). Anyway, poo will not ruin our afternoon. But, mama mistakenly went into gentlemen toilet to wash her hands and we were LOL-ing together. We say...Oopssseey. haha.

Church
I actually felt rather stink today going to church. Not having a good sleep last night, thinking about something and feeling a little sorry for myself...I was quite tearful during the worship. Then, come listening to the message. The sermon was about keeping the holiness of God's name. You know...all the while I felt I had already know the topic and finding it rather difficult to concentrate. Come to the end of the message, the preacher talked about how...just HOW then should we live knowing that God has adopted us as children. We are children of King of Kings, no? Would we still live as how the world live? How different are our attitudes to life suffering (ongoing problems, sickness)? knowing that we are children of the God Almighty? knowing that He created us and will bear, carry and save us whatever we gone thru? He said a quote which I think very strong and I think this is the way it goes:

You call me teacher
but you never listen to me
You call me the Light
but you never see me
You call me the Way
but you did not follow me
You call me Lord
but you never serve me
Just don't be surprised
when I come again and
I said that I don't know you.

Wow. I was challenged. Just how have I reacted? have I reacted the same as the non-believer? have I reacted as If I have not known Jesus, the Savior? have I reacted as if I have not a loving Father in Heaven who care so much about me as to give His one and only Son to die for me?

God, just don't allow me to go through each day without knowing the significance of your love for me. Let me grow in that knowledge, until I am radically transformed in how I live my short tiny life you give me. Getting rid of the sins that so easily entangles...knowing well indeed that every ministry is an opportunity, it is a privilege! knowing well that all ministry is YOUR ministry. It does not need human worries and intelligence to work it out. YOU will work it out all problems and that my burden is light. YOU have absolutely all power all resources required to accomplish your purpose on this earth. And if YOU so choose not to eradicate/rule out problems, it is entirely at YOUR command and we should not never worry or feel guilty, thinking that we are not successful.

Also, just want to say to Ita, thank you because I just felt encouraged after talking to you today. We didn't really sit down and talk, it is just the usual chats. But, I just feel encouraged from my little upset this morning. Thanks ya.

Work
It is a little difficult to be grateful about my work these days. I do not look forward going to the office tomorrow. Big day. Just afraid that my work won't be appreciated. Anyhow, I want to make a list that I can be thankful for:

1. Thank you God for A (my lady boss), took me home on friday and brought me right opposite to esplanade when I was really tired.
   
2. Thank you God for N (logistics staff), she is very nice, always go lunch with me.
3. Thank you Godfor my working hours, it is far better than a lot of people.
4. Thank you God for giving me a job and PR in this time of recession
5. Thank you God for bringing mama here
6. Thank you God for this marketing job, I am just a beginner yet I foresee to learn many things from this job. Uncertainties really are quite scary. But, Lord I leave it to your Mighty Hands.

God, use me wherever I go! I know You are a trustworthy God! You will never forsake me and are willing to bear my burdens. One day at a time Lord, one day at a time... I know You are leading...I trust You!

Search the Scripture

I WANT A GOOD LONG THOROUGH MANUSCRIPT STUDY!!!

Life is wonderful

Jason Mraz goodies...enjoy...

Spiritual Gifts

following Ita's post...hehehe.

Binyun...binyun...(unsure abt my spiritual gifts)

Gifts based on personality:

1. Knowledge
2. Teaching
3. Encouragement
4. Discerning spirits
5. Administration, to give, mercy (same score for all three)

Gifts based on Experience

1. Evangelism
2. Teaching
3. Discerning spirits
4. Shepherding, to help, to serve, mercy, to prophesy (same score for all 5)

After combining the two, three major gifts:

1. Teaching
2. Discerning spirits
3. Mercy
   

Interesting results indeed!

Previous test using Network course by Zondervan were the following results:

1. Intercession
2. Faith
3. Encouragement
   

What do you think ah?

Time to say Goodbye

Beautiful song :)

On Acceptance

Why people starve for approval? Why do we have the need to be accepted by people? By somehow having respects from our companies we feel we are sorted ourselves and do not really need anything else?

I read a shout out posted by one of my friends in Facebook saying "money is everything, without money and riches, no one will ever look at us". Very honest observation but too quick a conclusion. Traditional chinese, yeah I will mention us Chinese. We are included. We are too proud, too full of ourselves. Yet, we fail in measuring any man's dignity and worth by simply looking at the superficial things they possess (as if it's gonna last forever). Oh GET OVER IT People!!! Those diamonds and golds might be expensive, shows your hard work?? maybe...or it shows that you have just robbed someone?? you have my cynical laugh. We should respect other humans just how we like to be respected.

Don't judge the book by its cover. So cliche the saying that we forget what it really means, yeah...

Upset. I am upset. Why people do this to others as fellow Homo Sapiens? Too cruel.

Money may satisfy all your needs and wants...but the question is are you fully satisfied? or it just leads you to new desires waiting to be fulfilled? viscious chain huh?

Haih what human does when they left God out of their life equation.

On cults

I heard about a friend of mine might be visiting a dodgy church. I was so disturbed to hear this. I feel like screaming out! People open your eyes!!! study the Bible well!!! It is BLIMMIN CLEAR!!!

The thing about cult is that, it can be very legalistic so as to take God's grace out. They talked about keeping the gospel, it's all well and good. But, how do you do it? What source do you used? Do you encourage people to find themselves or are you 'stretching' out the truth? DONT!!! DONT DO IT PEOPLE!!!

My friend and I used to serve the Lord together. BUT WHY THE TURN??

I feel very weak, very cowardish and such a softy. I am too soft to rebuke people.

We had just studied about "speaking in tongues". Heck, it is very clear! let me just paste it to you ya. Don't insist on your stand. Read the Word with cool head. Trust me, it will speak for itself!

1 Corinthians 14

1Follow the way of love and eagerly desire spiritual gifts, especially the gift of prophecy. 2For anyone who speaks in a tongue[a] does not speak to men but to God. Indeed, no one understands him; he utters mysteries with his spirit.[b] 3But everyone who prophesies speaks to men for their strengthening, encouragement and comfort. 4He who speaks in a tongue edifies himself, but he who prophesies edifies the church. 5I would like every one of you to speak in tongues,[c] but I would rather have you prophesy. He who prophesies is greater than one who speaks in tongues,[d] unless he interprets, so that the church may be edified.

6Now, brothers, if I come to you and speak in tongues, what good will I be to you, unless I bring you some revelation or knowledge or prophecy or word of instruction? 7Even in the case of lifeless things that make sounds, such as the flute or harp, how will anyone know what tune is being played unless there is a distinction in the notes? 8Again, if the trumpet does not sound a clear call, who will get ready for battle? 9So it is with you. Unless you speak intelligible words with your tongue, how will anyone know what you are saying? You will just be speaking into the air. 10Undoubtedly there are all sorts of languages in the world, yet none of them is without meaning. 11If then I do not grasp the meaning of what someone is saying, I am a foreigner to the speaker, and he is a foreigner to me. 12So it is with you. Since you are eager to have spiritual gifts, try to excel in gifts that build up the church.

13For this reason anyone who speaks in a tongue should pray that he may interpret what he says. 14For if I pray in a tongue, my spirit prays, but my mind is unfruitful. 15So what shall I do? I will pray with my spirit, but I will also pray with my mind; I will sing with my spirit, but I will also sing with my mind. 16If you are praising God with your spirit, how can one who finds himself among those who do not understand[e] say "Amen" to your thanksgiving, since he does not know what you are saying? 17You may be giving thanks well enough, but the other man is not edified.

18I thank God that I speak in tongues more than all of you. 19But in the church I would rather speak five intelligible words to instruct others than ten thousand words in a tongue.

20Brothers, stop thinking like children. In regard to evil be infants, but in your thinking be adults. 21In the Law it is written:
"Through men of strange tongues
and through the lips of foreigners
I will speak to this people,
but even then they will not listen to me,"[f] says the Lord.

22Tongues, then, are a sign, not for believers but for unbelievers; prophecy, however, is for believers, not for unbelievers. 23So if the whole church comes together and everyone speaks in tongues, and some who do not understand[g] or some unbelievers come in, will they not say that you are out of your mind? 24But if an unbeliever or someone who does not understand[h]comes in while everybody is prophesying, he will be convinced by all that he is a sinner and will be judged by all, 25and the secrets of his heart will be laid bare. So he will fall down and worship God, exclaiming, "God is really among you!"

Orderly Worship

26What then shall we say, brothers? When you come together, everyone has a hymn, or a word of instruction, a revelation, a tongue or an interpretation. All of these must be done for the strengthening of the church. 27If anyone speaks in a tongue, two—or at the most three—should speak, one at a time, and someone must interpret. 28If there is no interpreter, the speaker should keep quiet in the church and speak to himself and God.

29Two or three prophets should speak, and the others should weigh carefully what is said. 30And if a revelation comes to someone who is sitting down, the first speaker should stop. 31For you can all prophesy in turn so that everyone may be instructed and encouraged. 32The spirits of prophets are subject to the control of prophets. 33For God is not a God of disorder but of peace.

As in all the congregations of the saints, 34women should remain silent in the churches. They are not allowed to speak, but must be in submission, as the Law says. 35If they want to inquire about something, they should ask their own husbands at home; for it is disgraceful for a woman to speak in the church.

36Did the word of God originate with you? Or are you the only people it has reached? 37If anybody thinks he is a prophet or spiritually gifted, let him acknowledge that what I am writing to you is the Lord's command. 38If he ignores this, he himself will be ignored.[i]

39Therefore, my brothers, be eager to prophesy, and do not forbid speaking in tongues. 40But everything should be done in a fitting and orderly way.

Swing it Ladies...

At Last - Etta James

A nice music to welcome the weekend. I am very happy :). Both of my boss are happy with my work. So will you swing it with me??

Early June Blues

I met my other new colleagues, she is in fact still a student at a reputable University in this country. Her job is pretty much the same as my job. To be frank, I felt a little down as she is given the same task as me. She is still in Uni and I left Uni but we have same responsibilities. But then, I am grateful I was entrusted these little things. I was given opportunity also to gain experience in food industry. That is sufficient. If I should think the task given was easy, it might be a more valid complaint, but it was not easy and I am learning.

Sometimes, I feel I work a little slower than everyone and was feeling a little "kiasu". But, heck! I will be true to myself. My job is pretty challenging. I am content and commit to learn as much as I can from my work. Haiyah, why this country so believe in merits and achievements? and gaining approval from it? My confidence is in Christ alone. He accepted me and loved me, not because I am meeting any of His standards. But, because it is purely His choice.

Faith and Feeling

QUESTION: I am a Christian, but I do not feel as strong love for Christ as I know I should. What can I do about this?

The fact that you mourn your lack of love is all in your favor. No one is likely to deplore the coldness of his heart unless there is some warmth there already. It takes love to desire love. There has scarcely been a Christian, however devout, who has not grieved because he loved Christ so little. This appears to be the one mark of saintliness that is almost universal. Further, you must remember that your love for God is not primarily an emotion, but an act of the will. True Christian love is the love of willing, not the love of feeling, though it is likely to bring a great deal of joyous emotion along with it. Our Lord made the test of love to lie in obedience to His commandments (John 14:21-24). Feeling is a by-product of obedience. The order is: (1) believing, (2) willing, (3) obeying, (4) feeling.

QUESTION: My occupation is distasteful to me and God has not answered my prayer to have it changed. Can God be using it as a thorn in my flesh and refusing to hear my prayer for that reason?

This is extremely doubtful. Paul's thorn was not his occupation, but something far more personal than that. God may be delaying the answer to your prayer because He knows that your trouble does not lie in your occupation, but in yourself. It is a fallacy to believe that we are unhappy because of external circumstances, and that if we only get our circumstances straightened out we will become happy automatically. I once heard a great preacher say, You'll never be contented anywhere until you can be contented anywhere, and I agree with him fully. Peace of heart is a gift from God to the man who has met certain spiritual terms. It has nothing to do with occupation or living conditions. 'My peace I leave with you' was spoken to persons who were to know little else but trouble for the rest of their lives. God usually changes our circumstances by changing us internally. Allow Him to lift you above your present occupation and He may lead you into a better one.

QUESTION: I am in government service and deeply dislike my work. I feel that I am not accomplishing anything worthwhile. Is it right for me to pray to be led into a different kind of work?

It is always right to take our problems to God in prayer. He has promised to bring the blind by a way that they knew not (Isa. 42:16), and He assures us that if we keep Him in our thoughts our path will be directed (Prov. 3:5,6). We should not, however, allow ourselves to get wrought up about anything. It is the consensus among superior souls (as revealed in their books of devotion) that the Spirit leads without agitation, while the enemy, when he tries to imitate the Spirit, usually whips us up to a state of confusion and mental distress. The best rule is to pray, trust God fully and then follow His providences. Do not insist upon an earthquake or a whirlwind as the only evidences of divine guidance. God may lead you by a still small voice or by quietly arranging a set of circumstances so ordinary as to seem commonplace. Faith accepts quiet guidance; only unbelief demands a miracle.

QUESTION: I am a university student and my problem is this: If I study enough to pass my tests I have a feeling of guilt for having neglected my prayer life. If I pray enough to satisfy my heart I neglect my studies. What shall I do?

I think you are creating a problem where none exists. You have fallen into the common error of living a divided life, counting prayer as sacred and study as secular. God's will never contradicts itself; neither does He lay upon us duties that conflict with one another. Here is my advice: Consecrate your studies to God as a living sacrifice. Ask Him to accept your intellectual labors as an offering of love. To the spiritual man everything is sacred; nothing is secular. William Law says, 'Miranda does not divide her duty between God, her neighbor and herself; but she considers all as due to God, and so does everything . . for His sake.' Begin to think of your college work as intellectual worship acceptable to God by Jesus Christ. This will make the dullest subject enjoyable and, incidentally, it will sharpen your brain so you can grasp difficult ideas a lot more easily. The notion that prayer is to be made in retirement only is erroneous. That prayer which consists of an address to the Deity (which the Pharisees made on the street corner and which our Lord said should be made in the closet) is only one kind of prayer. A well-lived life is a prayer if it is lived in the faith of Christ. The hands may pray by doing honest work, the feet by carrying us to that work; sleep can be prayer when it refreshes us to serve our fellow men and eating may be prayer if it is done with thanksgiving. There is no reason to doubt that your college studies are an acceptable form of spiritual service. Of course, you should spend as much time as possible in prayerful retirement; only don't get under bondage to it. "So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God" (1 Cor. 10:31).

by Aiden Walter Tozer